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Someone corrects me,

“Don’t be like the flower that gives its fragrance to the hand that crushes it but gives to the hand that appreciates it”

Well said bro. Bravo. Okey, Noted.

(But ill keep that status up on whatsapp until forever, yours one, ill keep in my head as a guidance in my life). Very short and brief yet memorable. Moga dividen pahala smpai to u.


p/s: that was two months ago, sincerely, i appreciates yr advice, just in time u noe. Wlaupun terkejut dpt text like that from u, anywy, May Allah gives u the best of the best, bebahgia dgn fam dunia akhirat. Don’t get me wrong, he is just a distance-friend (or what we call that? stranger kah? myb not).

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Spending my lovely morning in the post office today. Such a great wednesday, less crowd, yeay, so i could happily breathe and greedily occupied two seats for me n my belongings. Hahahaha..

As usual, …i’m conducting an early morning observation on human behaviour..and my eyes stopped at an old lady, she was counting her cents for the bills. She looked so pity while flipping the cash and bills (i believe she was checking the amount of cash she bring and i was deeply touched) before calmly walked to the counter and handover the cash to them.

Plenty of good and bad thoughts running inside my mind..jangan ditanyak apa yg difikir, nearly 1hour spm essay. hehehe. Despite all of these thoughts, her calmness draws my attention back to her.

I was reading about Qanaah last nite, which means to feel content, suffice, grateful, and thankful to Allah for what are given and not. And x meminta2 tapi mensyukuri. Also, Redha, peaceful, and sabr. Numerous simplified versions of qanaah based on my understanding of last night reading. You can read it yourself and gain simpler and better definition….

Personally, i admired her. Because she’s old, hunchback (did i tell u earlier?), alone, calm, and brave. And i think what made her stronger is her appreciation towards life (for what is written and unwritten for her by Allah). Looking at the way she dressed, i supposed, she lived her life less than most of us. I was deeply moved by her attitude and calmness. I pray that we should meet again, and believe me opah, its going to be along chit chat with u next time.

Suddenly, rs ashamed to myself and now my great wednesday has became “the thoughtful wednesday”. Perhaps kenak double check sendiri and thats y in the hadith has mentioned,

Dari Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda,

انظروا إلى من هو أسفل منكم ولا تنظروا إلى من هو فوقكم ، فهو أجدر أن لا تزدروا نعمة الله عليكم

“Pandanglah orang yang berada di bawahmu (dalam masalah harta dan dunia) dan janganlah engkau pandang orang yang berada di atasmu (dalam masalah ini). Dengan demikian, hal itu akan membuatmu tidak meremehkan nikmat Allah padamu.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim)

-retrieved from,


P/S: and for anak2, dont let yr parents go and pay all bills, especially yg dah tua2 susah nak bejalan.come on, have mercy on them. theyre not as strong as their young age anymore. its a pay bck time, shower them with love and attention, theyr too old to do all these young ppl jobs. Understand? (this was the first paragprh of my essay wen looking at her entering the room, and 20 paragps later at 80km/h speed of mind-writng. hehe.)


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Not all people can read you the way you read them, to understand apatah lagik.

Sometimes, your good intention can be disastrous to others. Learn that. Be extra selfish and not helpful to avoid keeping bad bad bad memories in your head over your life diary.

The guilt? Mestilah ada. But back to square 1, be extra i don’t know even though you know cause being i know, yes i know, ill help you out, you need my help? sure can, seems to be wrongly interpreted by ppl. ahahahha. (but u know right, if u know something and not telling truth about it, Allah knows bah, later Allah tanyak balit why u dont tell them?, apa aku nak jawab, be an extra i dont know is forever not a good option, grr).

So then, husnudzon come to the door and knock my head, knock em’ hard.

It made me remember this,  we live for redha Allah, not redha manusia.

-> so this is a way better….

Doing the best is basically for a living but the ability to be in good shape while ur head wanders in pluto, your leg at the office, ur heart is missing someone, ur hand barely holding a cup of drinks, ur eyes want to sleep, ur tummy singing loudly, and so on..mould you to be a survivor. (not all surviving classes taught u tis, and it doesnt req u to survive and win but to calm down the storm inside you without letting people know how u really feel).

HAHAHAHA..i will look back one day and finally realize it was an empty slot in my head that crash so bad that even you try to fix the memory card, it won’t goes well. Something is missing.


From that someone whom has deeply missing her sleep and lost in her research,

Come Back!!!



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Sorry im still in mess


Not so hello day.

Yesterday, a good fren of mine had proposed to me some1. The first msg was like “r u still looking  for a husbnd? Ive finally found some1 fr u, my fiance’s friend, you might want to get to know him, he’s funny”

So my answer was “look, i was introduced to some1 bfr, n it didnt end well, ive became awkward to him, n now i just ignore him eventhou he is in front of me, im not willing to treat a person like that but it just happened (n im not going to drag another person into my life, serik!), this is beyond me, im tired to carry on actually (kenal,suka,kenak main,i rasa i bodo), in a simple word, im fed up”

She asked me to kenal dulu then decide, claiming that if x compatible to each other then, not necessarily for us to carry on. (Personlly, i dont favour this way as ive been there, n i dont found talking or texting over phone with some1 you want to get to know to or better say the ‘calon’ helps a lot. Though im good in story telling or descrptive writg, im not a person that will go to anyone this way n  story-tell them ‘about me'”. Personally, i do feel like it is a trial an error method. Xsuke, ssh, letih, berat hati, pening. Haisshh..

One thing for sure, i believed that Allah has prepared me the best man to handle me duniya akhirat. While waiting for the man to come, ill just be happy to fullfill my life with anything i can. But still i want to say sorry to the person that ive hurt. Im still in a mess giving my heart a break. Ive realized that some people came into my life as lesson. Mybe i wasnt good enough and that was the lesson learnt.


Best regards,





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when CAFFEINE is no more a good company



Ever since my “visit” to the emergency dept at the hospital on the fourth day of eid, ive had officially stop consuming caffeine related products. Now, it has been almost a month without coffee. I thought i was going to lose grip of staying up late at night without coffee but hey, i was WRONG!!..totally WRONG!. I can survive my days without caffeine in my blood vessels. I don’t need any cheat codes to tell my brain to stay awake, or , running man marathons to keep up. Nonetheless, I still got 5 months to go for the No-No- Caffeine-Campaign. I hope to success till the end and slowly can shift myself from the unhealthy diet to a healthy one.

Wish me luck.=)



p/s: i like anything pink nowadays, color changing mode ON!

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Salam. Hye.

The next literature review section of my life apart from driving bhviour.


Welcome to the crib!!

Meet your uncle “gastritis”, he had been here since 6 months seems that he wont move out as he intends to stay longer eventhou ive been increasing the loan repayment for him..he still insists..hmm, try to get along and dont give me hard times in 1 shot.

I hope “baby” costo will b enjoying the stay here. It’s quite pack inside as yr uncle had succesfully became the mafia of mafias. I’m hoping that baby costo will not become one. Say, if u r upset with yr uncle, please please dont throw tantrums onto me. Look, if u keep doing these, i cant survive my days..pity me. Let me do my job, get things done, so tht i cud eat, solat, sleep n be happy.

U’ve hd already made my raya in misery. Thus, i’d expect least from u, as i know nothing can be done to cure u (painkillers, yes, temporarily).

So many changes in my life and back to square 1..everything comes from Allah. I belong to Him and to Him i shall return.

Best regards,